Mamavation Monday - July 5, 2010

I can't believe that my last Mamavation post was back in May. It's amazing how quickly time passes. I've been working hard on me since my last post. So much has changed and is changing each and every day. No longer is my focus on weight loss. That doesn't mean I don't want to weigh less or be healthier though. But that isn't my focus. My focus is on me, accepting myself, forgiving myself, finding my compassion, honoring my body. It's been a journey so far, parts of it have been extraordinarily difficult to work through, but the other side of it is bringing absolute freedom to my life.  There has been a new awakening within me and the journey is far from over. This is a lifelong journey and I'm ready and excited!

So what does all this mean in regards to my weight and my journey to better health?  Well, I've come to realize food has served a purpose for me. Perhaps not the healthiest purpose at all times - it's been a comfort, it's filled a need. I've also used it to punish myself. No more. I am working on accepting the parts of me that uses food for reasons other than nourishment; I'm learning how to sit in discontent and just feel the feelings. I am working on loving all the parts of myself. I intend to nourish my body and treat it like the temple that it is.  I am not depriving myself.  I am being mindful when I eat.  I am eating less but more often - I am not allowing myself to become overly hungry.

In regards to exercise - I've actually been exercising regularly for a few weeks now. Going for walks, doing some workouts with the Wii, and of course my 6 minute NEWO. Today I actually for the first time in, I would say 15 years, I jogged. Outside where people might see me. This is HUGE! I didn't care if they were all in their windows pointing and laughing (which we all know they weren't) but I didn't allow my inner critic to dictate what I did today. I did intervals of jogging and walking on my last km of my usual walk.  I'm sore now, but I lived! I jogged and it didn't kill me and I just might do it again. :)

My food plan for this week looks something like this:

	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Sun	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Mon	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Tues	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Wed	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Thurs	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1 pm	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6 pm	Snack: 8 pm
Fri	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea
	Breakfast: 7	Snack: 10	Lunch: 1	Snack: 4	Dinner: 6	Snack: 8
Sat	yogurt & homemade granola	Green Smoothie	Large salad w/lean protein (meat, legumes or egg). Bowl of fresh fruit	1 cup fresh raw veggies 2 Tb hummus	lean protein whole grain vegetables	apple slices (or other fresh fruit) OR homemade energy bar Hot tea

And my exercise plan is Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to go outdoors for a walk {jog if I feel led}. Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday to do some sort of workout with the Wii.  Every afternoon or evening I want to do the 6 minute NEWO strength training exercises.  Sunday is my day of rest and relaxation. :)  I also intend to include plenty of self-care practices.

I have no idea what I weigh and at this point in my journey I am not ready to bring back the scale or measurements. For me, right now, it's important for me to be loving towards myself and I am not sure I am capable of being as kind to me as I should when I'm basing my success on numbers.
☮peace.♥love.☺joy